Beginning Again

So last night I decided to write a letter to my ex, and it stated that I still loved him and that he was right I was living in the past and that soon I will stop talking to him unless he wants to talk to me and he will be getting a package in the mail with all of the things that are his. I dont want to return them but yet they are not my items to keep. I told him that I fucked up and let my head talk and I lost someone really special to me and that his next girlfriend or wife is a very lucky woman to have such a great guy. And I also thanked him for giving me the second opportunity to be with him, I miss him and love him but I really dont want to hurt him again and that is why I am leaving for good.