My Introdution On My Problem

To start off my name is Erika Phillips, and I have had one hell of a year. In the beginning of 2009 things made sense, I graduated and had a wonderful man, and the best friends a person could ask for. But then Justin and I (Justin was my bf) started having problems, the main reason I think is because he told me he was going to Arizona for school (11,000 miles away), and I thought I wouldn't beable to live, I wouldn't know how to function. But then in the beginning of December, I decided I didn't want to be in a relationship anymore. After two and a half years (which to some isn't a lot) I called it off. I left a man that loved me no matter what, and that would take my hand in marriage and I left him, cold turkey. I have thought a long time on what I have done and if it makes any sense. And then the further I went into this thinking process I noticed I didn't know who I was anymore, I truly hated myself. And I am trying to fix my "hating" issue. So I have decided to make myself love me, So the other day I joined the Gold's Gym Challenge. And I want to make myself a better person. And I need to shape up before I push my closest friends away for good.