My Life in Ruins

Lately I have been thinking about the things that could have gone different, what things could have happened, and then realize that my life our lessons we are supposed to learn wouldn't have been learned. I wish I could tell the story of my past week but that would take up way to much time and energy. I loved my life at one point and then I think somewhere I made a really big mistake that I didn't learn from. But I can think and think but yet it doesn't take me to the answer I want. I figure life does go on but when does my heart and head match up together? I want to know the answers before the questions are even out in the open. Why does my thoughts go to the negative side of life? I could be a happy person but I need to have at least one night where Im not upset or thinking about something that brings a tear to my eye. Music is my savior. I have to find my own tune and stick to it. I have to find my path and dance my way through life with the happiness and joy of others and become "me" again. Hands up if you agree!!! lol Going to find the right tune and start my dance.