When do you finally notice???

So when do you finally notice your in pain???? Well I think its when you are sitting at home, laying in your bed in the dark blasting music in your ears so loud that you block out the real world for just a couple hours. Or until exhaustion finally takes over. I think thats how you find it out. Sucky... What am I to do with my life... when everything decides to go tits up??? I mean seriously I have shit for a life, I am still young but you know things could go my way at least once!!! I'm hating life right now. I keep thinking and shit wont stop. Damn it :(