REALITY!!

So lately I gave some thought to my current situation which is single and lov'n it. Back to when I was taken and happy, not thinking anything could change that. I mean I am happy with my decision but its kinda heart wrenching when you were looking forward to the 3 yr mark and all of a sudden its gone. I feel greedy.... like I can just juggle him around, and I know I cant and I know I dont want to but for some reason thats what I feel like Im doing. I have realized that the two and a half yrs wasnt a waste of my life, I did love him and the way he made me feel. He is such an amazing guy but I am/was not the girl for him. Thank god for the reality hit.